Here, in the darkness preceding sleep,
the ringing in my ears is drowned out by purrs
and the faint sounds of crickets and traffic.
I smell the odd combination of witch hazel, fennel, and fabric softener
(from natural ingredients, and from a company in the city where I wish to live,
so it feels local).
Paw prints circle, circle, circle,
and settle on the small of my back -
just enough pressure to ease the tension.
My mind is racing, splattered with colors and flooded with images
of smiles and laughter and the time I couldn't see the lake through the reeds
because I was too short.
As I close my eyes, the purrs and the faint sounds of crick
You'd think it'd be simple
an organic beat like
heart drumming or
rain drops plunking on the roof outside
it's a love-hate affair, really
nothing ever comes out
the way it sounds
inside my head
line breaks and capitalization
rarely appear properly and
consonance and assonance
only make cameos
everything I've been taught
has degraded over time
I'm much older now
so life is complicated
that's what I keep telling myself
as time passes I just
run out of rhymes
and all the stuff I used to use
instead I'm overcome
with images of babies and fluffy things
how am I supposed to write
when I'm not pissed off!?
You'd think it'd b
I still remember when you lifted your face to the sky
it turned your lips blue and smeared across your face as cotton candy
I raised my fingers and twirled some down for myself
only to watch it slither down my arms and over my body
until it was dripping from my clothes.
My smile stretched from here to there
even while there changed and you changed
And though I cannot see your face any longer
I can still feel your lips
and my hands still smell like sugar.
all i've ever known has swollen
and grown, stretched, sweat and sullen
things wretched and tumbled from
my mouth to the floor can't speak anymore
can't hear anything, anyone but that same
silly drum beats harder and i know
everything that's grown hasn't grown too tall
and as i fall there's still a voice humming,
still a beat drumming, still the same
undulating, underlying, trivial
themes. but it's all the same!
or is it? something greater has
taken a hold of me, taken orbit
maybe age has lifted more than
it's pulled and sagged and stretched but
all i've ever felt has crumbled
and flown, fluttered, crashed and tumbled
down a
i heard something other than
what i thought i would,
what i thought i should.
i feel something other than
what i used to feel,
where i used to feel.
i've become someone other than
who you used to know,
who you used to touch.
i know someone other than
who you used to be,
who you are now you see.
it's best you take a few steps back.
take stock of what i've been telling you.
maybe it's something other, something better
than you thought you might save me from.
i felt something other than
what i felt for you,
what i've felt for you.
i am someone better now,
someone wiser now
and i won't repeat old mistakes.
if my fingers were the roots of my dejection
then i'd stretch them o'er the miles and
undetected i'd slip inside, in-between your face and the
cold reflection it makes in my eyes in my own mirror.
fight or flight, darling. how could you
even think of such primal things
when i am not there to soothe them away
with delicate sways of my hips
and my fingertips on your skin?
it's criminal, i know it .
just swallow deep and maybe time
will grant my one desire and speed the hell up.
it is dark here. is it dark there?
i can't hear you. are you out there?
i waited here. did you wait, dear?
i don't know, dear, where you go, dear.
you can find my whole inside
in a hole i currently reside
you will find my soul is shattered.
words are scattered, and contrived, dear.
my inspiration has grown thin;
blame it on my old addictions.
but i still can turn a phrase
even if i don't amaze anyone.
my innards knot beneath the weight of air
invading my throat, pushing down, down
until i implode, tripping over the words that once
pooled quietly under my tongue;
still - a lake amongst the stones of my teeth
undisturbed until now.
the laughter has faded from my eyes - nay, hidden
behind my irises and corneas, deeper, deeper
where even you - the plague upon me - cannot see.
there is a fire growing there;
it is my rage, and you, you are the spark upon which it birthed,
flourished, and sought to swallow me from inside out.
the world slides out from under my feet
pulse tick-ticks in uncommon beats
ground turns blue and the sky turns green
and the world slides out from under me
something grand is happening
the world slides out from underneath
my feet float high above my knees
I lament the myth of gravity
nothing here to keep me grounded
nothing here to keep me here
nothing here to keep myself here
(hm hm hm hm)
and my pulse tick-ticks uncommonly
slow drum beats down inside of me
and the world slides out from under my feet
the world slides out from under me
words dance like blades on my tongue,
not like they did when i was young.
the passing years have made me numb -
not like they did when i was young,
scraping and biting and pecking and picking
and peeling away the emotions
that once flowered like onion petals,
only to curl and be eagerly devoured.
Here, in the darkness preceding sleep,
the ringing in my ears is drowned out by purrs
and the faint sounds of crickets and traffic.
I smell the odd combination of witch hazel, fennel, and fabric softener
(from natural ingredients, and from a company in the city where I wish to live,
so it feels local).
Paw prints circle, circle, circle,
and settle on the small of my back -
just enough pressure to ease the tension.
My mind is racing, splattered with colors and flooded with images
of smiles and laughter and the time I couldn't see the lake through the reeds
because I was too short.
As I close my eyes, the purrs and the faint sounds of crick
You'd think it'd be simple
an organic beat like
heart drumming or
rain drops plunking on the roof outside
it's a love-hate affair, really
nothing ever comes out
the way it sounds
inside my head
line breaks and capitalization
rarely appear properly and
consonance and assonance
only make cameos
everything I've been taught
has degraded over time
I'm much older now
so life is complicated
that's what I keep telling myself
as time passes I just
run out of rhymes
and all the stuff I used to use
instead I'm overcome
with images of babies and fluffy things
how am I supposed to write
when I'm not pissed off!?
You'd think it'd b
I still remember when you lifted your face to the sky
it turned your lips blue and smeared across your face as cotton candy
I raised my fingers and twirled some down for myself
only to watch it slither down my arms and over my body
until it was dripping from my clothes.
My smile stretched from here to there
even while there changed and you changed
And though I cannot see your face any longer
I can still feel your lips
and my hands still smell like sugar.
all i've ever known has swollen
and grown, stretched, sweat and sullen
things wretched and tumbled from
my mouth to the floor can't speak anymore
can't hear anything, anyone but that same
silly drum beats harder and i know
everything that's grown hasn't grown too tall
and as i fall there's still a voice humming,
still a beat drumming, still the same
undulating, underlying, trivial
themes. but it's all the same!
or is it? something greater has
taken a hold of me, taken orbit
maybe age has lifted more than
it's pulled and sagged and stretched but
all i've ever felt has crumbled
and flown, fluttered, crashed and tumbled
down a
drain my last wish.
suck out my last breath.
blow smoke in my face
with an egotist's air
smile with your crooked smile,
empty all encouragement.
make me numb.
make me succumb.
prick me.
reassure me.
patronize me.
knock me down a few pegs.
call me "honey."
call me "doll."
tell me I'm fabulous.
tell me I'm stupid.
laugh at my insecurities.
laugh at me.
undo my stitching.
push the last pin.
Opening her eyes felt like a most burdensome task. When finally they lifted their leaden shutters and revealed a pair of dark, abyssal, soulless windows – she found herself staring directly at the ceiling. Slowly she blinked and began to scan the room; she found the shower curtain slightly ripped from the rod, dangling off to her left at a rakish angle and perhaps threatening to fall on her if she dared breathe against it. It was then she noticed the full gravity of her surroundings and began to remember what had gone on in the preceding moments. She lay at length in her old, somewhat dingy bathtub, fully clothed yet in about an inch of water
It smells like death in here. I just felt a drop of water hit me.....now it's sliding down my face, but I can't do anything about it. My hands are still shackled, and I can't reach it with my shoulder. Who knows what it dripped from....but it doesn't really matter anyway, I guess. After all....it smells like death in here.
It's a peculiar thing when you first realize what death smells like. After sitting in this hole for so long, I should know all too well. I wasn't in here alone to begin with. I'm simply the last to go. That's how I know.
My wrists have ached for some time now, but no one cares anymore. I miss having the ability
Don't look at me that way
You know – like I have changed or been gone for a while
I cannot fathom how you placed the blame
Did you vote or did you suggest my name?
I'm sick and tired of these fucking games
And all you offer is a patronizing smile
Don't look at me at all
Your gaze is poison and I'm soon laid out
I'm numb to the matter in question
Oh here's a suggestion:
Leave a better impression so it's not something I just read about
Don't look at me that way
What's the word?
What's your pleasure?
You act like something to adore
Something to behold
Hell, you broke the mold
Don't look at me that way
Like you can read my thoug
displacement - reconaissance by haloeater, literature
Literature
displacement - reconaissance
watching her mouth move is like watching
a puppet strangle in its strings -
spinning slowly without reason,
without rhythm.
constant in its vow of self-preservation,
the larvae burrow deeper,
impaling their target
with their sinister grins.
the smell of nicotene ambient;
that notion that every movement is, in fact, deliberate -
that there is no such thing as kismet.
I choose to forever live in secrecy.
I will fold your essence beneath my tongue;
it slides down easily -
without effort.
Why can't you see that?
a sudden influx of
maggots,
outpouring from my sense
of self-worth;
pull me into chloroform
messiah -
i shall drown happily.
a rapid discourse of fluid escaping -
disipating into a thousand thousand
miniscule shards.
bite. rip.
tear.
i will never repair.
lips peel back to reveal...
a sense of your latent touch
all these days
still upon me.
a stiff chill breezed through the open window
and knocked over a beer bottle
that still had at least a fifth left in the bottom.
funny how beer stains look exactly like piss stains
on a tan berber rug.
we stood around and watched you do somersaults;
you were cackling about some profound political idea you'd had,
but meanwhile, you couldn't locate your left sock
and had become convinced the cat had it out for you.
furry little charleton! you'd cried,
and taken out your vendetta on a poor, defenseless ottoman,
rather than addressing the issue at hand.
So I've been gone for quite a while. I've had this pesky video game addiction leeching all my creativity away. But that's over now, have to quit for reasons outside my control. This is not a bad thing! Now I can get back to things that aren't detrimental to my health. Like...pretty much anything else.
I've grown up a lot since I started here. I've also gone through a lot of...what did I call them? Muses. I've gone through a few of those. I am contentedly muse free at the moment. So I would imagine I can sit down and write something halfway decent and not just sappy allusions to the same old "oh I miss you" bit. Age is not a bad thing. Howeve
lately when i read other people's poetry
the lines stretch out at each end
forming tendrils that lash at me
wind around my neck and squeeze and squeeze
as of late
the words of others giggle quietly at even intervals
in rhythms and rhymes designed specifically
to make me nod in agreement
lately consonance and assonance
and all the mechanics i know backward and forward
have growled and glowered at me from around dark corners
knowing full well i can't do much to shut them up
lately when i read other people's poetry
it makes me sad
not because the words are sad
but because i know i should have written it.
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